the edge of it all

every good thing has been taken
every soft, warm hope has turned it's razor-sharp side
every hope has been drained of it's dream
faith.  faith seems like a ridiculous child's game.

this blog is closed.

Elizabeth Lesser.  Broken Open.

what an indescribable feeling to have pushed yourself to the very thread of the edge of your fear...to feel it's sulfur hot breath on your face...and to take yet one more step forward...this, my friends, is the ultimate rush...this is being alive.

Alis Volat Propris (She flies with her own wings)

I found this over at Mystic Mama, and have to say I agree wholeheartedly.  especially this week while i await some great grand news that may or may not launch me...the dire video and news from Colorado has me feeling so badly for those in the path of rain and mud and devastation.  and it is exactly from those parts that my news was to come.  so i continue to wait, knowing that it is A#1 on my mind, however sense that it falls way down the list for those who have no homes right now.  and of course, it is understandable.  so i go back to trying to amuse a pup who needs to be kept quiet post-surgically, but has all the energy of a typical pup.  it is all connected.  we are all connected.  we are stardust.

what in your life are you grateful for?  Past and present.  Write it down.

what in your life did you wish for really really hard, and it didn't come true, and in hindsight - you are very happy it didn't.  Write it down.

What in your life is a big disappointment to you?  Maybe is it a disappointment because it was a wish that didn't come true and maybe just maybe, it was by grace?  but you just don't see that yet.  but maybe if you let go of the disappointment, it will clear the way for the real good stuff that is instead.  maybe.  but who knows.  take a chance?

In that moment, our eyes met & I remember thinking This is what it is like to be struck by lightning, knowing I would never be untouched by her again.