the edge of it all

every good thing has been taken
every soft, warm hope has turned it's razor-sharp side
every hope has been drained of it's dream
faith.  faith seems like a ridiculous child's game.

this blog is closed.

Elizabeth Lesser.  Broken Open.

what an indescribable feeling to have pushed yourself to the very thread of the edge of your fear...to feel it's sulfur hot breath on your face...and to take yet one more step forward...this, my friends, is the ultimate rush...this is being alive.

Alis Volat Propris (She flies with her own wings)

I found this over at Mystic Mama, and have to say I agree wholeheartedly.  especially this week while i await some great grand news that may or may not launch me...the dire video and news from Colorado has me feeling so badly for those in the path of rain and mud and devastation.  and it is exactly from those parts that my news was to come.  so i continue to wait, knowing that it is A#1 on my mind, however sense that it falls way down the list for those who have no homes right now.  and of course, it is understandable.  so i go back to trying to amuse a pup who needs to be kept quiet post-surgically, but has all the energy of a typical pup.  it is all connected.  we are all connected.  we are stardust.

what in your life are you grateful for?  Past and present.  Write it down.

what in your life did you wish for really really hard, and it didn't come true, and in hindsight - you are very happy it didn't.  Write it down.

What in your life is a big disappointment to you?  Maybe is it a disappointment because it was a wish that didn't come true and maybe just maybe, it was by grace?  but you just don't see that yet.  but maybe if you let go of the disappointment, it will clear the way for the real good stuff that is instead.  maybe.  but who knows.  take a chance?

In that moment, our eyes met & I remember thinking This is what it is like to be struck by lightning, knowing I would never be untouched by her again.

2-fer

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” 
― Rumi

“Be grateful for whoever comes, because each has been sent as a guide from beyond.”
― Rumi

"Nobody is who they are based upon one decision, one day, one path, one chance, one relationship, or one anything else.  Every day is brand new and opportunity never stops knocking....who's there?"  TUT

It's not just imagining and conjuring and arriving...it's not just arriving and putting your feet up...it's the daily living it and choices...it's the daily choices you make that continue the journey, change it, define it, refine it...the physical "place" is just the beginning.  the conjuring makes the beginning possible.
ME

wishing you a day of magical connections, brilliant conjuring and sun sharp clarity.

a day of remembrance...of taking stock and re-prioritizing...of telling one another "I love you"...setting free ties that chafe, and tying in loose ends...remembering Self and the harmony that lives within - find it again.  live by it again.  In that raw moment, and the many many to follow, all the superficial was scraped away.  years have built the covering back up, layer upon layer like an encaustic painting.  scrape away the pretty facade.  i double dog dare you.

from Brian Andreas:

I don't worry about what could go wrong, she said. I worry about whether I'm in a place yet where I could handle it if everything goes right.

ahhhh.  right between the eyes....

it feels good to be back here.

fall is when some tuck in and nest....getting ready for the long winter...i tend to come alive in the crisp air....apples come into season....pumpkins come out to play....autumn is my sensory playground....