what in your life are you grateful for?  Past and present.  Write it down.

what in your life did you wish for really really hard, and it didn't come true, and in hindsight - you are very happy it didn't.  Write it down.

What in your life is a big disappointment to you?  Maybe is it a disappointment because it was a wish that didn't come true and maybe just maybe, it was by grace?  but you just don't see that yet.  but maybe if you let go of the disappointment, it will clear the way for the real good stuff that is instead.  maybe.  but who knows.  take a chance?